Stephanie, I’m glad you posted something. Anything is good when it comes from you. I will be honest with you, the longer you don’t post, the harder it becomes to post. Even if you post that you feel like “blurg” and the world is “blah,” it will help you exercise your writing muscle (which from my position is fundamental to who you are) and you will work through your grief and be able to enjoy life again. You get to do that. I believe your Mom would want those things for you. Hugs from a friend in Utah.