I had many profoundly disturbing discussions with professional musicians that made me decide that I would not even try to study in music. But my case is not yours and I'm sure some succeed very well. Maybe it was this story of skipping meals, eating just peanut butter, pass a few teachers each year in high school band because they were almost in burnout saying to my mom "pls, save your girl before it's too late", having all my family on my back that I could not even pay "veggies", stories of my maker and teacher about people who made stages in Russia + attended our best music school in town without finding a job after or were still on bicycle at 40. Yes, I admit I probably heard some of the worst stories. I know there are much better ones but it is always good to hear both sides I imagine. At first, I tough they were all projecting their anger feelings on me but they really wanted to help me, not demolish me. I was too immature to realize their good intentions back then. Do I like more studying something I hate (well this includes everything that is not music lol) now? Not at all and it is a big sacrifice but I hope it will allow me to play plenty of music as an amateur and eat ok. Since my parents help to pay for university, I can't go in something risky and feel guilty all my life of having done this to them who do so much sacrifices. It is not as if they were millionaires that could afford to help for more than one field of studies.