Writing about your grief may help you process it. All of your faithful readers understand that. We’ve all been there…(or will be there someday). You have a lot of “firsts” to go through, and they’re not easy. Don’t feel bad about being happy, though. I’m sure your mother would want you to be happy. That’s just how mothers are! 🙂 (I lost my mom almost 15 years ago, and especially this time of year I miss her terribly.)