I really relate to this entry. Being a convert, I feel I went through so much to be LDS and had such a horrible backlash from my parents that when I started drifting, I couldn’t just give the whole thing up. I want to be there and have children there, but I don’t want them to feel stigmatized for possibly being LGBT, I want my husband to be a part of it yet I know that I love him for not having some of the extreme views of religion and “being the head of the household” type of guy, and I want to not be in the telestial kingdom while also questioning the whole linear time concept for afterlife and who becomes “administering angels” issue. I very much appreciate your take on this and I wish you the best in figuring out all of it, it makes me feel like I’m not alone and I appreciate that.