I know exactly what you mean about feeling guilty when you are enjoying yourself and being happy. I have felt that too after my husband’s sudden death last year. But it is ok to laugh and smile and not think about that person 24/7 without feeling guilty. It doesn’t mean that you love them any less or have forgotten about them. They will always be in your heart and no one can take that away from you or all the precious memories. Hugs to you. xxx