Write what feels right to you. Delete what you don’t like (probably most of it, from the way you sound). It helps just to get it out on the page, even if you throw it out. You’ll start getting your balance again at some point, these are just rough waters right now. And I have to laugh – from what I saw in the comments, most of us were telling you that you were TOO NICE to that guy on the plane and you should have stuck him with your knitting needles.