I was in that place mentally where I just didn’t feel like going out. I felt like staying at home and watching the flickering lights on my projector. I watched movies, T.V. shows, visualization programs that sync to the music I listen to, etc. I just felt like I was in a rut. The worst part was, the more I didn’t go out, the worse I felt. Despite all the lays I’d been getting — about one every two days — I still started to feel shitty. And that’s when I first started realizing that I wasn’t going to find any kind of fulfillment bedding different girls all the time. Those feelings were only going to get stronger. Anyway, on this day I started thinking, ‘How can I get girls to come to me, or what’s a solid reason to get out of the house today?