I also am in the early stages of potentially buying a house. It means saying goodbye to the house I've been in and running as a venue for over 7 years. I have really become who I am in and because of this house, and the prospect of leaving is sort of freaking me out. On the one hand, it's always been a rental, and therefore always seemed like it has to end at some point. On the other, I always had it in the back of my head that maybe my landlord would sell me this place. Well, it turns out, she would, but the price she wants for it considering the condition it's in is totally unreasonable. That reality is sinking in, and I found a place I'm starting to let myself fall in love with. A few of my housemates and my partner would come with me. Figuring out what the remaining people will do with the house, if anything at all, is weighing heavy on me. I don't want to leave anyone holding the bag on this rental, but I think considering the history and function of the house we can get people to move in. I worry about the house continuing to throw shows after me, even though I also love the idea of something continuing on beyond me. The house has never just been me, but especially in the last few years I have taken on the vast majority of the event running. I want to throw a big goodbye show for myself and the couple other housemates following, even if that seems big-headed. Growing up is strange.