So… can we considere that deeply inside of her, Emilia has feelings towards Subaru? Yes, the chapter shows us that she’s broken, she lost her hopes and dreams and put everything on the only thing that was always here for her : Subaru. But when I read the loop, especially this part, I feel like despite her mental state, those words are all but a lie. The text says that she denied what she was seeing (meaning that she had the choice to, she just didn’t want to face the truth of losing what was left for her so her true self was here, or at least a part of it). I mean, even Garfield and Roschii (kinda) confirmed that there was something up to her about Barusu.